It is two days before my 34th birthday, and I’m so wound up with anxiety I can’t function. The majority of the western United States is burning. Friends I have loved and lived with, cried and laughed with are breathing smoke, evacuating, and watching their hallowed and favored places burn in fires so vast the pictures resemble a Pentecostal Hell. In the east, many others I know, including my father, my grandmother, and dozens of coworkers and colleagues, are stocking up on su